Let me start by saying, life has been so hectic since we've moved back from Japan to the US.   The house we moved into needed a lot of repairs that we were unaware of, the new used SUV that we brought ended up having several repairs as well, and the bank account emptied very fast.  I also have been struggling with many issues myself being away from my husband, sharing my home with my mother in law, thinking about what life is going to be like having a fourth child without my husband being around for the next six months. 

  I have felt the enemies attacks and my mind has been the battle field.  I know the Lord has been here with me through it all but I must confess, I've found myself pushing him further and further away.  All of my dreams stopped, the desire to read my bible became less and less.  I became bitter and some long gone sins were creeping back into my life.  Living in Japan was a wilderness period for me, the Lord took me away from everything that I was use to and comfortable with.   Food that I was use to, my primary language, family, friends, TV shows and the one thing that helped me the most, church.  I compare that part of my life to the story of Moses wondering in the wilderness for forty years.  I had God, I had my family but that was it and I leaned on God more then anyone or anything.   I wasn't faced with many temptations or did we have many trials.  This was a time of growing up in my faith and getting to know the Lord.  

  Being back in the states has put to the test all of what I've learned and has shown me how much I have grown in my faith.  As hard as this is for me to say, I am not as mature as I thought I was spiritually and I've really been down on myself about it.  God has been working through me though, and its an everyday battle that I am faced with, some days are better then others but I find when I shift my focus on Jesus rather then the cares of this world he gives me strength.   

 I've also learned that I MUST take things one day at a time and not worry about the future, this has been extremely hard for me, especially in my circumstances and some days are easier then others.  Even though I'am faced with these struggles I can see and sense the Lord working in my life and in me.  The one thing I know I can always count on, is him never leaving me or forsaking me.  I've prayed for so many things in regards to mothering my children, being the wife God has called me to be and making the things of this world that took priority in my life less important and I am seeing those prayers answered.  I am in a season of learning and growing and the transition part is very hard.  Yes, I was also in a season of learning and growing back in Japan but being here now, its a completely different learning experience then when I lived overseas.  

 Okay, now the dream and how it came as a birthday present.  I mentioned a few paragraphs up that since I came back here I haven't had any dreams from the Lord.  This is how I know I've let more of the world in rather then my precious Lord.  In the dream I was with my best friend and we had bags packed as well as others around us but we new where we were going.  We were preparing for the rapture, now yes I know we aren't taking anything with us but this was a way in my mind to say we were ready and prepared! Well, it didn't happen when we expected it to, and yes I know the Lord is coming on his own time.  The next scene, I was driving alone feeling disappointed that my Lord didn't come for me when expected.  It was high noon and beautiful out, with very few clouds in the sky.  Out of no where I heard this loud thundering from the sky but it wasn't like normal thunder, it was something I've never heard before and it startled me.  Before I new it, there stood a door before me that I watched open up, then I seen myself looking up towards the sky.  I didn't see anything else or was I interested in looking at anything else but towards the sky.  I felt this over powering feeling come over my body, it felt cleansing, a renewal, a washing, a transforming of my entire body.  I felt weightless as my body rised up towards the clouds, I new the day had come, I new as the transforming continued that I was going to be with my Lord.   

There aren't any words that can describe what was taking place with my body, what I was feeling as I was being transformed into this new person.   But I felt every bit of it even as it woke me from my sleep on the day of my birth.  I don't know what would have happened if I wasn't awakened but being able to experience what I did in the dream was all that I needed.  The Lord new what I needed and he chose to give it to me on my birthday, it was as if I heard him say as soon as I came to, after the dream 'Happy Birthday'!   

 I would love to know the timing of the rapture and for awhile I was almost sure it would take place this summer but, God's timing is not ours.  He hasn't come yet because there is still more to be done, more souls to be saved.  Each day brings us closer to that glorious day but until then my focus is going to be on serving my Lord and growing more in my faith.  I am not going to stop watching for all of the signs which are happening right before our eyes that was prophecied in the bible.  I get excited seeing them all knowing that all of these signs are leading up to the return of our Lord.  When he comes, I want to be ready and thats where my focus will be for now on.  

 I also had a glimpse in this dream and I don't know where it fits in the dream but I seen angels coming down from the sky.  Their wings were very large and beautiful.  It appeared to me that their wings changed in color or some angels have different color wings, I am not sure but I remember seeing different colors on some of their wings.  When their feet would touch the grown their wings would close up and they would walk among us like normal everyday people. 

 

I had another dream last night; they seem to be coming often lately...

 In the dream I was visiting my mom in her hometown and there were others around us.  We were having a pretty good time talking and laughing enjoying each others company when all of a sudden out of no where we heard these loud explosions that sounded like it was right at the door.  I immediately got up and ran to the window when I discovered up above us there were helicopers dropping bombs all around us.  I don't recall what happened next but I know we didn't at all expect anything like this to happen, we were all in utter shock. 

I am not sure where this fits into the dream or if its even apart of the dream but it took place in my mom's hometown.  My husband and I were driving and stopped to get coffee, I went into the coffee shop, ordered and thought it was kind of odd that the amount which was charged seemed extremely high (the amount was 110)  I didn't question for some reason  I just handed the money to the cashier.  When she went to give me my change I looked at her like she was crazy! She didn't give me dollars so I started saying I needed Amercian money.  How was I going to shop?! Non of the employee's said anything to me they just looked at me strange along with all of the customers.  I felt like I had no clue what was going on but finally they said they no longer had American money they only had Euro! (European money).  When I got back into the car I told my husband what happened and he said that they finally did it, they finally made a one world currency!

I have never seen what the Euro looks like but after researching, it did look much like what it did in my dream! I don't remember what  the theme on the Euro was in the dream but I do remember what the amount of the Euro was and what it looked like and it looked exactly how it is on the Euro notes today.